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stillkicking) wrote2010-09-29 12:30 am
stillkicking) wrote2010-09-29 12:30 am
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Forgot about half these words. Hers and mine. Forgot what it was like to be that young and stupid and passionate. I remember that woman, I remember loving her so much it hurt to breathe, sometimes, but it's another damn thing entirely to read the words again and miss her so push it's like falling off a cliff with your heart in your mouth and your arms flailing around like a baby's.
Eh.
I miss that man, too.
Hard to find anything in the world to cling to except the one, when you've lost everything that mattered to you. No one seems worth the time. The more kids and grandkids and greatgrandkids and greatgreatgrandkids you get, the less they all stand out, the less they all matter. Half of them don't even want to get to know me, just ingratitiate themselves in the hope that it won't all go to Stephan's line when I kick it. They don't care about who I used to be, they aren't interested in making themselves worthwhile people, and they don't want to hear two farts about Fenea.
Except the one.
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... good gift, boy.
Good, good gift.
Forgot about half these words. Hers and mine. Forgot what it was like to be that young and stupid and passionate. I remember that woman, I remember loving her so much it hurt to breathe, sometimes, but it's another damn thing entirely to read the words again and miss her so push it's like falling off a cliff with your heart in your mouth and your arms flailing around like a baby's.
Eh.
I miss that man, too.
Hard to find anything in the world to cling to except the one, when you've lost everything that mattered to you. No one seems worth the time. The more kids and grandkids and greatgrandkids and greatgreatgrandkids you get, the less they all stand out, the less they all matter. Half of them don't even want to get to know me, just ingratitiate themselves in the hope that it won't all go to Stephan's line when I kick it. They don't care about who I used to be, they aren't interested in making themselves worthwhile people, and they don't want to hear two farts about Fenea.
Except the one.
[Filter: Devine]
... good gift, boy.
Good, good gift.