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(no subject)
Sep. 13th, 2012 11:16 pm[Filter: Private]
What happens if I find nothing.
What happens if I die without ever knowing where he went. If he's alive or dead. What happened to him. Who hurt him. Did anyone hurt him? Did he just run away? If I never find the sword. If I never find a body.
He can't be dead, where is the body? I've turned this city upside down, and where is the dragonsdamned body?
And the sword.
-- what if I never know.
What if I damn well die without ever knowing.
[Filter: Lorcan]
I suppose you're on your way back to Rhia, now. No sign of the sword at all.
[Filter: Private]
...
[Filter: Benedette]
Those bawdy players still in town?
What happens if I find nothing.
What happens if I die without ever knowing where he went. If he's alive or dead. What happened to him. Who hurt him. Did anyone hurt him? Did he just run away? If I never find the sword. If I never find a body.
He can't be dead, where is the body? I've turned this city upside down, and where is the dragonsdamned body?
And the sword.
-- what if I never know.
What if I damn well die without ever knowing.
[Filter: Lorcan]
I suppose you're on your way back to Rhia, now. No sign of the sword at all.
[Filter: Private]
...
[Filter: Benedette]
Those bawdy players still in town?
(no subject)
Aug. 15th, 2012 02:05 am[Filter: Devine]
Where are you.
Write.
Write back, you little -- where the hell are you?
At first, I thought you were gone. And then I thought you were dead. But now -- I have turned this city upside down. I have turned Dentoria upside down and shaken it, and nothing has fallen out. There is no body and no trace of that damned sword I should never have given you, and corpses don't move.
Men move.
Did you -- did you run away? From me? But why the hell you would --
Or were you kidnapped? Bah, but by who?
-- it's been a year, in any case, and all I am asking, boy, is that you write a single damned word so that I know whether you're alive or dead. I miss you, of course I do, you know I got too damn fond of you for my own good, but that's not what matters, anymore. It's the damned not knowing.
Every rock I turn over that doesn't reveal your rotted corpse makes more and more convinced that you have to be alive out there. Somewhere.
Just -- one damn word, boy.
Have enough respect -- have enough mercy to give me that.
[there is a long, long pause]
Feh.
And I thought I'd learned my lesson with Fenea.
Where are you.
Write.
Write back, you little -- where the hell are you?
At first, I thought you were gone. And then I thought you were dead. But now -- I have turned this city upside down. I have turned Dentoria upside down and shaken it, and nothing has fallen out. There is no body and no trace of that damned sword I should never have given you, and corpses don't move.
Men move.
Did you -- did you run away? From me? But why the hell you would --
Or were you kidnapped? Bah, but by who?
-- it's been a year, in any case, and all I am asking, boy, is that you write a single damned word so that I know whether you're alive or dead. I miss you, of course I do, you know I got too damn fond of you for my own good, but that's not what matters, anymore. It's the damned not knowing.
Every rock I turn over that doesn't reveal your rotted corpse makes more and more convinced that you have to be alive out there. Somewhere.
Just -- one damn word, boy.
Have enough respect -- have enough mercy to give me that.
[there is a long, long pause]
Feh.
And I thought I'd learned my lesson with Fenea.
(no subject)
Apr. 1st, 2012 12:03 am[the writing is somewhat weaker than usual]
[Filter: Lorcan]
... well, boy.
I said I would go for a walk and think about this, and I've done that.
I admit it. Your explanation is the only one that seems capable of explaining this, ridiculoud as it is. The marks of claw and tooth upon those bones are far too deep and far too alien to be any animal I have ever heard of, but it was not steel that caused those wounds. And the charring ...
What now, then? I refuse to let that woman disappear into Kilia and be gone beyond my grasp forever. I refuse it.
[Filter: Lorcan]
... well, boy.
I said I would go for a walk and think about this, and I've done that.
I admit it. Your explanation is the only one that seems capable of explaining this, ridiculoud as it is. The marks of claw and tooth upon those bones are far too deep and far too alien to be any animal I have ever heard of, but it was not steel that caused those wounds. And the charring ...
What now, then? I refuse to let that woman disappear into Kilia and be gone beyond my grasp forever. I refuse it.
(no subject)
Mar. 31st, 2012 11:52 pm[the writing is somewhat weaker than usual]
[Filter: Lorcan]
... well, boy.
I said I would go for a walk and think about this, and I've done that.
I admit it. Your explanation is the only one that seems capable of explaining this, ridiculoud as it is. The marks of claw and tooth upon those bones are far too deep and far too alien to be any animal I have ever heard of, but it was not steel that caused those wounds. And the charring ...
What now, then? I refuse to let that woman disappear into Kilia and be gone beyond my grasp forever. I refuse it.
[Filter: Lorcan]
... well, boy.
I said I would go for a walk and think about this, and I've done that.
I admit it. Your explanation is the only one that seems capable of explaining this, ridiculoud as it is. The marks of claw and tooth upon those bones are far too deep and far too alien to be any animal I have ever heard of, but it was not steel that caused those wounds. And the charring ...
What now, then? I refuse to let that woman disappear into Kilia and be gone beyond my grasp forever. I refuse it.
(no subject)
Feb. 18th, 2012 01:42 am[Filter: Private]
...
For the first time in my damn life, I feel ...
Old.
I feel damn old.
[Filter: Lady Benedette]
Well, girl, everyone has nothing but good to say about your damned party. Not a bad thing being muttered anywhere. I suppose that means congratulations.
[a long pause]
[Filter: Lorcan]
Where are you?
...
For the first time in my damn life, I feel ...
Old.
I feel damn old.
[Filter: Lady Benedette]
Well, girl, everyone has nothing but good to say about your damned party. Not a bad thing being muttered anywhere. I suppose that means congratulations.
[a long pause]
[Filter: Lorcan]
Where are you?
(no subject)
Jan. 22nd, 2012 06:57 pm[Filter: Private]
The little idiot. I wonder if she has any idea what she's done.
I learned a lifetime ago not to tie sentimentality to places, things. Stupid little trinkets and abstract concepts. They make you vulnerable, they make you weak, and you lose nothing from losing them.
It would have been satisfying to see that place burn. It would have been ...
[Filter: Lorcan]
Mobilize your men. Now.
I know where she is.
The little idiot. I wonder if she has any idea what she's done.
I learned a lifetime ago not to tie sentimentality to places, things. Stupid little trinkets and abstract concepts. They make you vulnerable, they make you weak, and you lose nothing from losing them.
It would have been satisfying to see that place burn. It would have been ...
[Filter: Lorcan]
Mobilize your men. Now.
I know where she is.
(no subject)
Oct. 7th, 2011 11:58 pm[Filter: Private]
Boy ...
[Filter: Lorcan]
This is getting ridiculous. It's been two damn weeks and there still isn't any word of that boy. He can't just have vanished. There must be some sign of him. Tell me that you've found something out there, some ... trace. Tell me that he's left a trace somewhere, dammit.
I need to know if he can be found.
Boy ...
[Filter: Lorcan]
This is getting ridiculous. It's been two damn weeks and there still isn't any word of that boy. He can't just have vanished. There must be some sign of him. Tell me that you've found something out there, some ... trace. Tell me that he's left a trace somewhere, dammit.
I need to know if he can be found.
(no subject)
Sep. 24th, 2011 02:59 am[Filter: Devine]
Boy.
I've really been enjoying our talks lately. You're not like the others, all these worms and grubs Fenea and I managed to spawn. Some of them are decent, but most ... eh, but even the best ones, you're head and shoulders above. That's why I gave you that sword. You're different from all of the others, the whole legion of them.
There's something ... special that I want to talk to you about.
I want you to come to my rooms tonight, after dark.
Boy.
I've really been enjoying our talks lately. You're not like the others, all these worms and grubs Fenea and I managed to spawn. Some of them are decent, but most ... eh, but even the best ones, you're head and shoulders above. That's why I gave you that sword. You're different from all of the others, the whole legion of them.
There's something ... special that I want to talk to you about.
I want you to come to my rooms tonight, after dark.
(no subject)
Sep. 2nd, 2011 09:10 pm[Filter: Devine]
So, boy.
Do you actually want me to like Rachelle for altruistic reasons? Or do you just feel badly for her, now?
Heh. She must have talked a good game to you, at least. That's impressive. Last I heard, you thought she was trying to kill you on purpose, that night. And now you're sitting her beside me and putting a bottle of wine in our hands!
So, boy.
Do you actually want me to like Rachelle for altruistic reasons? Or do you just feel badly for her, now?
Heh. She must have talked a good game to you, at least. That's impressive. Last I heard, you thought she was trying to kill you on purpose, that night. And now you're sitting her beside me and putting a bottle of wine in our hands!
